The mist rose over the water on a perfectly calm lake on a crisp autumn morning. It's so beautiful, I thought. And I wasn't supposed to be here. In fact if the year of 2017 went as "planned" I was to be overseas navigating a new culture and winding through the busy streets of Northern … Continue reading I didn’t expect to find myself here.
The last time I was in British Columbia my heart was breaking. I'd like to think I was a victim, but I made some pretty poor choices to get me to that place. No healthy boundaries, unrealistic expectations, and I just couldn't let go. Once you say "I love you" for the first time, in … Continue reading Returning to the mountains: I am new.
Sometimes we need deep courage. When we get out of bed. When we walk into work. On the phone with our mom. Facing that friend. Going to church. Life isn't easy. Lately for me, I've needed deep courage in ballet class. Leotards and tights. Buns and ballet slippers. What was once an excitement and highlight … Continue reading Deep Courage when Fear + Insecurity Strikes
Passion has never usually been a problem for me. I was the girl who cared. I cared about the environment. I cared about suffering. I cared about injustice. I cared about my friends, and school, and city. I cared about justice. I cared about causes. Most university students I know care about causes. I went … Continue reading Passion, please burn
Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful. When I look back on these photos which were taken in August, I have a lot to be thankful for. S. Alexandra is fierce, and little, and courageous. These photos were a creative project for both of us: for me an outlet where I could practice my composition, … Continue reading Thankful for her || S. Alexandra
I'm about ready to give up. Yep, there I said it. It's been this nagging feeling at the back of my mind all year, but honestly, I've been too afraid to voice it. Not trying to complain here, but in more than one area of my life I've been facing massive discouragement. I'm discouraged at … Continue reading Fighting Discouragement and Doubt
Our natural inclination is to be so precise—trying always to forecast accurately what will happen next—that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We think that we must reach some predetermined goal, but that is not the nature of the spiritual life. The nature of the spiritual life is that we are certain in … Continue reading The blessing of Gracious Uncertainty
"If there wasn't any change - you would still be in diapers!" was the classic response of my friend Robyn as I lay on her bed last fall complaining about change. I was entering my last semester of university and looked ahead to the looming unknown of graduation and what I would be doing. It … Continue reading Change Sucks – But it’s for My Good: Saying Goodbye to Guelph
Like most university aged young women I know, I've spent a lot of time thinking about marriage. I've listened to talks about it, read about it, and even watched wedding shows. Yes, that includes almost all 11 seasons of Say Yes to the Dress & its spin-off versions. I've spent hours online looking at wedding … Continue reading Why I Stopped Preparing for Marriage
Have you ever felt like you were standing on the brink of a giant cliff? Everything in your life had brought you to THIS MOMENT - right to the edge of the something huge. Something you know will impact your life in a huge way, and direct your path. It's overwhelming. It's uncertain how things … Continue reading The (Un)comfortable Life